08 - Wisdom in Broken Things

Since the blackout weeks ago due to the Typhoon Haiyan (commonly known as Yolanda in the PH), our microwave stopped working properly. A loud noise erupts from it every time it is plugged; thus lead us to the conclusion that the thing is broken and in need of repair. I was on the verge of telling my mom that we should probably replace it, but argued against it as she was determined to have it sent to the repair shop instead. See, my mom was 35 when she had me. We came from two very different generations. During her time, broken things are fixed not replaced. During our time, we practically replace things that are broken, even those that are only worn-down.

This morning, despite the knowledge that our microwave isn't working, I opened the thing and had my spaghetti heated. To my surprise, the loud noise was gone, the food was heated properly, and there was no sign nor indication that it was broken at all. And then it dawned on me: there is wisdom in broken things.

Some things, some people, fix themselves on their own, in their own given time. It is not something that one could impose on them. You cannot force someone to be okay when he/she is not. We should give him/her the time to get into terms with himself/herself. And while it's true that time could only heal wounds, but retains the scars, I personally believe we could choose how we wear those scars.

The heart is a resilient thing. It can never be irreparably broken.

08.25.14

07 - Sequel

No matter how good an opera is, no matter how climactic, how touching, how romantic, how perfect, how beautiful, a movie, a story, a book, a day, a song --- it ends --- With a cliffhanger. With a goodbye. With a dot, or a sigh. With tears and grief and hearts breaking. With silence. --as the credits roll. The last word uttered. The last tear fell. The last act executed. The last note played. 

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"I love you. Until we meet again.

No. Until we are ready for each other again."

7.22.2014

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06 - Je t'aime

A song,
a laugh,
a smile.

A poem,
a tear,
a sigh.

A dream.
a memory,
I cry.

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-Even the air that I breathe and the flowers in a June summer day and the cold rain that pours lightly, then violently on the surface of my being. Even with each passer-by, strangers whose names I would never know, whose only fault was being in the right place at the very time my eyes landed upon the earth where we stand. And even with my eyes closed, even in the darkness whereas no light could even reach, no life could have ever existed
--- I could see you. God, I could only see you.

"I am heavy with the weight of missing you, my dear."

6.30.2014

FROM WHERE I STAND

THINGS ARE LOOKING UP.

*while listening to a Jason Mraz song...

05 - Bad Days

There are days that you just want to get over with. Like that day you scraped your knee, or the day your pet died. Could be that day you got a fantastic zero out of a hundred score, or the birthday of a past lover, it might even be the day you said yes, your anniversary - or the day you found him in the arms of another. There are days that you just want to get over with.

This must be one of those days.

6.17.14

04 - Lost & Found

In finding you,

I have lost myself.

In finding myself,

I have lost you.

11.17.13

03 - Forever

Someone once asked me why I fell in love with you. Let me tell you this, it was never about what you've given me. Not even about you've given up for me. I think more than anything else, it was this --

--You were the closest I ever came to forever...

Ahhh... Time's up.

06.23.14 

02 - Endgame.

You are my endgame. When all is done, once I fold my dreams, once I checkmate my life's game, once I had enough... I would love it if you're the one standing at the finish line, waiting for me.

05.05.14