14 - LDR and Trust

LDR is a matter of trust. I have heard a lot of comments, from friends an people I care about, asking how sure am I that the one I'm with is not cheating on me; or even lying about his whereabouts or who he's with. I always answer with

"I love him and I trust him. He has not given me any reason to doubt him."

As stated earlier, LDR is a matter of trust; all relationships are a matter of trust. The gist is, trust can be so fucking fragile.

So, how do you break a person's trust? Easy. By lying and not telling the truth and cheating and the list could go on. How do you "un-break" it? You don't. Reason? Because you can't.

(Dear, you have to be painfully honest to the person you claim you love... That's how it works.)

Now I know being a thousand miles apart from each other is hard. I know a 14-hour time difference sucks. There might be times that you want to go out with your friends and even though there's no cheating involved in whatever activity you're set to do, you are still reluctant to ask for your partner's permission to go out. Probably for the reason that you've already concocted in your mind that this would start a fight. Blah blah blah. Whatever excuse you have in mind, lying is lying. Period.

So what's the best thing you can do?

1) Admit it. No excuses. Please.
2) Apologize not because your partner found out about it; but because you really are sorry for hurting his/her feelings.
3) Never do it again.

But what if you're at the receiving end? What if you're the one whose trust was broken? Well, I've only got one piece of advice for you. If you decide to take that person back after all the lying and cheating and whatnots, you. have. to. fucking. move. on. Meaning? In the future, never, for the life of it, bring up the subject. It's all in the past. You decided to forgive him/her, right? LIVE WITH IT. If you can't, then say goodbye to the relationship. No one wants a praning for a partner. And I'm sure, you do not want to be praning for the rest of your life. It's too much work.

-My 4AM thoughts. 04.29.16

13 - Bleeding Yellow

We live in a time where convenience is of utmost importance. Thus, fast food, instant noodles, speed dating, Tinder… We want to have anything - everything - the soonest possible time. We are impatient and we want to deal with matters the quickest way there is. So when someone promises to suppress crime in 3-6 months, all hell breaks loose. We jump onto that ship, our hearts on our sleeves, holding dear that promise.

I have to tell you the truth that I am skeptical about these promises. I went out of my way to research and read different articles about this coming elections, and gave each candidate a fair chance to get my vote. After days of discerning, I came up to a solid conclusion that my precious one vote goes to Mar Roxas. This is all for the simple reason that among the candidates, he possesses what I think are relevant for the next president to have. He has the vision, the integrity, the passion, the ability, just to name a few. His promises may not be as grand as what the other candidates have pledged but he has proven himself countless times already and will continue to do so if we just give him a chance.

So whether you’ve already decided as to who you’re going to vote for or not, I hope you’re voting for that candidate not because you let your emotions get the better of you, but because you have researched, weighed your options, looked past the propagandas, stepped back and looked at the bigger picture. Please look at the bigger picture. 

Tonight, I look at the sky and shiver and wonder what the future holds. The 2016 elections is around the corner. I hope it bleeds yellow.

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On a side note, since we're talking about Yellow here, Coldplay's coming to Manilaaaaa! Yaaay! I better get myself a job soon and save money for the tickets (or else, I'm doing what others will do: sell my kidneys). Who's interested? Kidding! (not.)

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Yellow still.

Well, if you’re looking for a serene place in Antipolo where you can hang out while sipping good coffee and delectable pasta, I would recommend the newly-opened “Yellow Bird Cafe x Kitchen” located near the entrance gate of Mission Hills Subdivision. The place itself is a 5/5! I fell in love at first sight at the warm interior, glass walls and overall vibe the place brings. See sample photos below:

with Lea.

Today, I tried their Chicken Pesto Pasta P160 (4.5/5), Mocha Chillers (3/5) and Blueberry Cheesecake (3/5). The pasta's really good and kinda cheap too! I've always been a fan of all things pesto so believe me when I say this one's going to send you floating to the outer space! (Now that's hyperbole). What I loved about it is that it was not salty and not too oily. Will definitely order it again when I come back. (Note: I am no coffee/food review expert; just a girl who loves to eat and drink).

The insides of the cheesecake look rough you wouldn't think it would melt in your mouth. <3

Overall, Yellow Bird Cafe is a cozy place where you could spend some me-time chilling or probably thinking about the important things in life (like who to vote for as president in the elections lol). The only downside as of writing is the limitation in the menu (there's not much food to choose from) but they are already working on this one. Will definitely come back! :)

-Cheng

12 - On Childhood & Cafe Esse

"Cousins are usually your first childhood playmates..."

We spent our childhood days playing on the streets, and occasionally pulling each other's hair. We had our share of petty cat fights, both with and against each other. But then we all grew up, took different paths and what used to be our everyday thing became a once in month, once in a year, or a just on a whim event. Conversations usually start with our common ground: our childhood memories.

"Remember when we used to tease that girl living near our grandparents' house? Or that guy we all had a crush to? What ever happened to the old man who asks for water every time he passes by our ancestors' house?"

and so on and so forth. There are a lot of stories to tell and laugh about. It's as if we're in a snow globe where time is stuck. There's a nice, homey feel to it. I wouldn't trade it for the world.

"... who grow up to be forever friends."

04.13.2016
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This year's on a whim meeting took place at Cafe Esse, a coffee shop situated at the 2nd floor of CEO Building, Sumulong Memorial Circle. This is near the Mcdonald's across Unciano Hospital. It's a cool, charming place with "not a lot of people" (probably the reason why I liked the ambiance in the first place). Wish the chairs/sofa are more comfortable though. Anyway, since they are not serving rice dishes, we opted for pasta and sandwich for our dinner.

First, we ordered the Cheesy Beef Mushroom (P180).

What I love about this dish is actually the potato chips. The chips were fried to perfection! It was my kind of salty so yeah, next time I should probably order the chips ala carte. The sandwich was so-so though. I'd give it a 3/5.

Next is the Cheesy Meat Fries (P95). As a potato lover myself, I found this one mouthwatering and delisyoso. Personally, I think the serving is too little for a P95, so I'm giving this one a 4/5. 

Next is the Spaghetti Meatballs (P180). I love my spaghetti tomato-ish. Cafe Esse's spaghetti meatballs is just the right kind of sour! Honestly, I am very picky when it comes to spaghetti but this one's right off the bat. Of course, you may contradict if you love your pasta sweet. (P.S To better understand my taste in red sauce pasta, I do not eat Jolly Spaghetti). Rating: 4/5.

We also tried Creamy Carbonara (P180) but I am not a fan of cream-based pasta. I did not hate it though, but I probably won't order this one again. Rating: 3/5.

Overall, the place is a good breather if you're considering a time-off from your daily activities, or if you want to hang out with special childhood friends you haven't seen for a long time. I'd probably come back later and try their desserts and coffee.

-Cheng.

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Also, sharing with you some photos of our get-together: 

 

11 - Reboot

A 24-year old girl without a regular job has a lot of free time. Thus, the rebirth of this blog.

I want to start things anew - I won't be divulging much information about my past and would just continuously move and write forward all my thoughts, inhibitions, anxieties and joys. I'll go to places and capture the best moments in my life and share them with you. 

A clean slate is what this is all about.

I will end this post with a quote from my childhood author, Lemony Snicket:

“At times the world may seem an unfriendly and sinister place, but believe that there is much more good in it than bad. All you have to do is look hard enough. and what might seem to be a series of unfortunate events may in fact be the first steps of a journey.”

4.08.16